Things that happen

So recently i haven't been really happy with myself,
maybe because i dont feel very effective in making my girl believe that she is important to me,
i know i must suck to do that,

She has been understanding, and always making me feel better about everything.

Yesterday probably i said too much, in a way i was totally misunderstood,
Ane doesn't know that, its not her that i blame for my failures,
she blames herself, she kinda left to correct herself,

yeah im a douche, maybe because i didn't realize it would make her do that,
i dont want her to go away from my life,
i love her too much,
maybe im selfish, but ... imperfections, or i say perfect for me she is.. i couldnt let her go,

so i do need help, kinda making her believe its not her,
I know she wouldn't listen to me, so probably someone she would,

Ane... i dont want you to think you are wrong at every step,
at the end im human, i guess, not the godess and the perfectionist you treat me like,

I hope you get me ... im missing you so bad now!
i love you!
ill be waiting... as i said i will... always!

11 months,

So on this day, 8th of march 2011, last year,
i was giving my board examinations,

Kinda tensed i was, with it being one of my most important examinations in my life,

soz...
I didn't really know a wonderful girl named aneliya existed, i was too busy mourning over the sad aweful things that happen in my life, (emo i was -.-)

so tomorrow i complete 11 months with her,
the best part is, if someone asked me, did you anticipate such an amazing relationship,
id say no,

i truly feel lucky to be with her,
its like she being there in my life, has stabilized me,
and she brings out the best in me,

And with her, i realize why my previous relationships didnt work,
it was because i was destined to be with the best!

I love you ane!
and i hope when im 30, you kill that person (you know what i mean)

Happy 11 months my love!
soon it would feel like a dot into our relationship! ^.^