Yesterday. As the grey weather outside the window made it's way into my already wacky mood, being that I had a long day and not slept in ages. Waking up in the middle of the night 5 times in a row doesn't do much good either. Add the constant headaches and some sexual frustrations and you got a recipe for disaster.
And that's what I got.
We all got bad day's, I know I took a lot of bad things when she had one last time. But, as it goes it was my turn. And as bad as I feel about acting like a douche and a total bitch, in some way if felt good. Sure I got some making up to do, and I will. But knowing she was there did help, maybe I didn't act like it but it did.
Everything has it's ups and downs. I guess excepting the fact we do have bad day's, and we do say things we don't mean. And yes there be anger and trowing pillows and dodging flying spoons. But it's about what happens afterwords.
People give up to easy, as I once did. And I still have a lot of isseus, but I did learn I'd rather be bitched at for a while for being an idiot as normal, then just to walk away agian. Maybe not as easy but more then worth it.
Made me a better person just know her, I hope everyone out there finds something like that. And not let it go no matter how much one F'd up.
i think i did like the fact that you dont hold yourself back..
ReplyDeletekinda know that i mean something to you,
I'd never let go, i promiss you that.
love you loads